A Beautiful Mess

When I look back on my life, it’s not that I don’t want to see things exactly as they happened… it’s just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way. And truthfully, the lie of it all is much more honest, because I invented it. Clinical psychology tells us, arguably, that trauma is the ultimate killer. Memories are not recycled like atoms and particles in quantum physics; they can be lost forever. It’s sort of like my past is an unfinished painting, and as the artist of that painting, I must fill in all the ugly holes, and make it beautiful again. It’s not that I’ve been dishonest… I just loathe reality.

- Lady GaGa

“Talking won’t change it. But sometimes it was what she wanted most, to tell someone; often, though, she just wanted to escape those horrid feelings, to escape herself, so there was no pain, no fear, no ugliness.”

- Melissa Marr, “Ink Exchange”

“I really haven’t had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So, I pretty much like to make it up. I’d rather tell a story about somebody else.” - Kurt Cobain

And nothing but. </3

“Monsters are real. Ghosts are real, too. They live inside us, and sometimes… they win.” - Stephen King  ♥ 

Fucking this, this, this. </3

“I’m a walking travesty… but I’m smiling at everything.” - Therapy